Sweet dreams

Why can't I have sweet dreams...
I'm cursed it truly seems
so shackled by the weight of thought
in all the doubts this day has brought
sweet wishes out of sight
and thus begins my night
to toss and turn and wrestle through
that's all in darkness I can do
for sleep shall know no rest
although I do my best
warm milk can never put to ease
what comes by way of gentle breeze
the moon that shines its light
is back drop to my fright
from prayers made down on my knees
I beckon to God, if you please
lay hands upon my head
and shield me from this dread
not yet I fear he said...
give time to hope, give time to me
give time to faith and you will see
these dreams are meant to warn
tread lightly in thy morn.

Deo Volente
March 8, 2011

Defeat

If I told you how I tried
how I've prayed and how I've cried
you may tell me that I've lied
but still it's true...
all the ache I hold inside is nothing new.
From the torment I can't hide
blessings carelessly denied
every wayward step that trampled within stride
bear the pieces of a heart that slowly died.
Behind eyes as cold as ice
ask me once and ask me twice
for the mirror of the soul that used to be
bears a darkness that I never thought I'd see.
Now I'm shaken to my core
and I fear there will be more
as the tree of lies is starting to bear fruit
you forget that God will always know the truth.
If I tell you what you've lost
what is priceless in its cost
you may roll your eyes and think me such a fool
but the wealth of life comes not by spark of jewel.
Ask me thrice if you so choose
walk a mile in these old shoes
then the edges of thy tongue won't be so able
for someday your hand will rest upon that cradle.
Now I turn to God in faith
to give love beyond thy hate
hoping so that I will learn to bear my cross
as I give to him that which I know I've lost.

Deo Volente
March 7, 2011

What of it.

What of it at the end remains
one bucket in the pouring rain
Some things we simply can’t contain
and yet we dare to try
on wings that shall not fly

A fire that will burn with rage
shall fade in time but spread with age
For as the minutes know
the wind shall make it so

Oh butterfly so fresh and new
remember still from whence you grew
The Earth that knew you then
shall know you once again

What of it at the end shall be
why care at all soon you will see
For now is just one chime
upon the hands of time

One meager step beyond the crawl
that swings the doors beyond these walls
Where freedom lays in wait
and so too tarries fate

As caution hits the window pane
each crack shall know both sun and rain
but when these marvels sting
what then of everything

When anger is the stench of air
devoid of love, respect and care
Then every breath shall take you there
the blight of misery’s season
but then, you have your reason.

Deo Volente
February 28, 2011

God's Love

Through God’s love we learn kindness
from kindness we find compassion
with compassion we gain humility
Through humility we build character
from character we learn courage
with courage we gain strength
Through strength we gain vision
with vision we seek knowledge
from knowledge we gain wisdom
Through wisdom we find understanding
with understanding we learn acceptance
from acceptance we learn how to love…

Deo Volente
February 28, 2011

May the circle that brings you growth
Always be rooted in the love of God.

Burden...

It came my way, I took a look
down to my core, it surely shook
The cross that I did carry
through grumbles I would tarry
For every moment of complaint
a sinners burden, not a saint
This load too great I said
still blind to what’s ahead
I cried to you o lord, with voice
that every step too hard a choice
Make lighter this my cross
I knew not what the cost
Each prayer you would answer still
for you believed in my free will
Knowing what would be
that which I could not see
This cross so crafted was my tool
if only I was not a fool
and when the time had come
it could not be undone...
for I forgot thy son.

Deo Volente
February 25, 2011

I wrote this poem because of an email I received that made me rethink how I pray when my life seems at its most difficult. A man carrying a cross kept praying for it to be lighter and he got his wish but when he came to a ditch he was unable to cross it and others who had carried their cross without complaint were able to use their cross as a bridge to make it to the other side. The thing is, I have no idea what is ahead, only God can see beyond my field of sight and as such he gives me what I need to make it beyond my obstacles, I just have to remember that. I hope that email makes it to your inbox, if it has not already.

At the end...

What of the mighty setting sun but glory to behold,
a light of day that once begun with hours to unfold.
In blaze across the tempered sky with kisses to the wind
a hue of waltz within the clouds that touches soul and skin
No other star shall ever shine as luminous as she…
Who stands upon horizons tip and melts into the sea.

Deo Volente
February 21, 2011

http://deosview.blogspot.com/2011/02/at-end.html

Sometimes I forget…

The day consumes me minute by minute
eyes fail to fall on the blessing within it
I push though the chaos that finds me just so
neglecting the blessings that God did bestow
The marvel of dew drops, the wonder of rain
the warmth of the sun and the fact that I’m sane
The sweet sound of echoing laughter
what comes in between and still after
A sparkle that flickers inside my child’s eyes
a moment that makes me so proud I could cry
The words of a strangers warm greeting
marvels that seem ever fleeting
A phone call, an email, a text without reason
wondrous sights in the turn of the season
I rush through the steps of my path
forgetting that which does not last
I find I see struggles, I find I feel pain
I find I remember lost trials again
forgetting my blessing indeed
The treasures of Gods planted seed
his mercy, his patience, his love without fail
His presence not only as life does derail
so foolish of me when I let…
Life’s twist, turns and stumbles abet,
while of me God never forgets.

Deo Volente
February 20, 2011