Easter

I have never liked saying, happy Easter. Of all the ways I celebrate Christ, Easter is the one that brings me more pain than joy. Don't get me wrong, I am beyond grateful that he chose to die for me and even more so that he rose from the dead. But I grieve that he endured so much pain. To be betrayed, abandoned, ridiculed, tortured and nailed to a cross bleeding to death not because of something he did but because of me, breaks me. I know that I should count it as a blessing beyond blessings to be loved that much and I do but it does not take away the anguish in my heart. So instead of saying happy Easter, let me say this, remember, he died so everyone of us could live. 

Thank you Jesus for loving me so much that you would willingly endure the unimaginable for my sake. I am not at all worthy, but I am eternally grateful.

KEC

aka Deo Volente

4/5/26

A puzzling thought.

 Word search or Crosswords puzzle? 

In the past I would have said hands down I am a word search person but lately I find myself leaning towards crosswords. Honestly, it is not because I have matured, I still enjoy a good word search every now and then. However, given the choice these days, I would choose a crossword, if for no other reason, for the challenge of the cruciverbalist's subjectivity. The fact is perspectives are subjective, but they have the potential for insight and insight potentially contributes to growth. So, though I may not agree with a crossword clue, each clue presents an opportunity for me to think beyond my own perspective. Whereas word searches only require me to find what is fixed within the box. 

What do you think?

KEC

aka Deo Volente

4/5/26

A hearts cry

Find me with mind, body and will, so I can be still.

In pulse of truth and soul, so pieces can be whole.

Seek me with tenderness, like no-one before.

So every bit of me, will want you even more.

Touch me in the courage of my try and as I cry.

From fingertips to cheek, touch me when I'm weak.

Hold me ever so in your embrace, caress my face.

Even as I'm standing in the rain, drenched in my pain. 

Wrap me in your arms from head to feet,

until I find my passion, bittersweet. 

Whisper every word in gentle voice, 

so you can be without a doubt, my choice. 

My reason to beseech the waking sun, 

where past gives way to all that has begun.

Do it all, so I believe in fate...

find me love, before it is too late.

K.E.C

aka Deo Volente

3/12/2026

Again

In blistering wind as cold as snow, 

I found the courage to get up and go. 

To thrust myself into the light, 

and that is when I learned to fight. 

For every shattered piece of me, 

reflections of the years I see. 

The pain, regrets and anguished cry, 

every reason just to die. 

In shivers of the great recall, 

I found the will to face them all. 

Removing every shard inside, 

no longer willing just to hide.

I faced the faces of the past, 

and took back all my love at last. 

Without a blink of eye, 

I bid them all goodbye. 

Then suddenly, the clouds stood out, 

and in my desperate final shout. 

I rushed into the rain, 

that reservoir of my pain, 

and found my heart, again. 

KEC

aka Deo Volente

2/21/2026

Lost

 If I could lose myself, I would seek in earnest steps where the sea finds the edge of the mountains and the sun bleeds into the sky. 

If I could lose myself, I would plant my feet firmly at the edge of a rainy day and soak up every drop without restraint. Casting my umbrella into the wind. 

If I could lose myself, I would scream in the still of silence, shattering my fears within the echoes of my years. Letting out what has held me in. 

If I could lose myself, I would run with determination towards that unseen tomorrow, willing and able to find my own pace. One foot in front of the other in steady assurance, unwavering.

If I could lose myself, I would listen to the rhythm of my beating heart and dance with unbridled joy, embracing the beauty within and without, quieting the noise of doubt. 

If I could lose myself, I would undoubtedly see with open eyes this tangled imperfection of self. Full and overflowing as I was always meant to be, then and only then, would I find me.  

KEC

aka Deo Volente

10/9/2025

You're not alone - explained

Have you ever felt alone? I have. 

By any chance, are you lonely now?

Loneliness is not an easy emotion to maneuver through, 

and the holidays can make it even more pronounced. 

Though I am years removed from that time of my life,

I recall it as clearly as though it were yesterday. 

That's why I wrote You're not alone. 

In its original form I said call me but realized that where I am limited, God is not. 

Though we may not always feel his presence or hear his voice, 

he is never far from us. 

So, if you are feeling lonely, 

I hope this poem serves as a remind that you are not alone. 

D.V.

T'll we meet again

I'll let the moments slip away, 

watching night turn into day. 

And do what I must do, 

till I return to you. 

I'll work these fingers to the bone, 

in crowded room I'll stand alone.

Guided by what's true, 

this heart beats just for you. 

I'll wipe away these bitter tears, 

as day turns into longing years. 

And sky begins to grey, 

my courage will not sway. 

I'll walk in paces sound and sure,

never wanting any more...

than what was meant to be.

Wait my love and see,

I will return to thee. 

KEC

aka Deo Volente

2/7/2026