Signs

Is it I in the silence that speaks to my heart
doubts without mercy that tear me apart.
I ponder the truth that I see,
then wonder out loud, is it me.
From all of the shadows that blaze in this sun,
beside me no matter how fast I might run.
I’m caught in a web of deceit,
seeking the path of retreat.
To find my true shelter to weather this storm,
that holds me, protects me, ensures that I’m warm.
I grope in the dark to be free,
and question again, is it me.
Amidst every whisper once carved in the sand,
I search their illusion so that I might stand.
Embracing my innermost light,
burning by day and by night.
Yet deep in the silence these thoughts are my screams,
a marvelous wonder of madness it seems.
So foolish I cannot deny...
how pointless the question of why,
for all the signs say...it is I.

Deo Volente
March 27, 2009

Rain drop

One of a million, among millions more,
comes falling to rest on my cheek.
Small and cold, I feel it...
touching me for reasons I can hardly explain...
because Life is a marvelous wonder,
because today is grey, unlike yesterday,
because it was meant to be,
because it found its way to me.
I choose not to let my mind quite my heart,
So I leave it where it lies.
letting the wind that gave it wings to find me,
take it once more to its eternity...
Its even colder,
but my heart is warmer for it.

Deo Volente
March 26, 2009

Words

To be moved by words
Lifted by lines
Drinking from passion
Sipping on thine
Every blessing bestowed
Letting go of the load
To wade in waters
Frolic in streams
Dance in fields
intoxicating dreams
Blow kisses of wishes
And catch then again
Washing in anguish
running in the rain
peeling the layers
letting it in
bathing in sunlight
hiding within
turning the pages anew
passionate embrace of true
To stand ever firmly
On life’s weary journey
Caught up inside the winds gusts...
To God be the glory a must.

Deo Volente
March 20, 2009

Just a thought

"Every today is yesterdays tomorrow and tomorrows yesterday..."

"Yesterday is made for memories that will linger in our hearts
While tomorrow for the future we intend right from the start
But today is just one moment if we make the choice to see...
We can treasure every second living life as it should be."

Deo Volente
March 19, 2009

Silent...

If in the silence that befalls
and through the darkness hunger calls
a spark inside so deep and new
awaiting so to see it through
in shallow steps of current wade
in whispers of a soul will fade
emotions fresh and new
the sweet sweet scent of dew.
There stands a single flame so still
alive against the force of will
fighting with each flicker
hoping to be thicker.
Full of fury as the night
burning through the blindest sight
paving roads that never were
inside the still small voice of her
then I could understand
inside the palm of hand
but this and there tis plain to see
was never meant and shall not be
no matter where the prayers fall
or desperately the words they call
answers will elude the sight
drifting in the darkest night
so here in shadows thee
what was and shall not be...
one silent spirit, free.

Deo Volente
March 19, 2009

Be still

Be still this heart that beats alone
Slowly turning into stone
Lost within the shade of tears
Weary in the eyes of years
Revealed to fail the measured line
Broken by the truth of time
Alone to weep so ever still
Ner or far of fated will
Cursed passion shows its face
Just in time to know disgrace
Never to be held in kind
Loneliness tis all will find
Foolish heart thou must be still
Wipe away those tears of ill
Solitude draws ever near
Quietly will disappear
Fated for this life alone
Hurry now, turn into stone.

Deo Volente
March 15, 2009

I read

I read to dream, to laugh, to explore
To loose myself and so much more
To climb the embankments of well written tales
to venture on edges of cliffs I must scale
to try and decipher another lost soul
To fill me with passion and make me feel whole
To learn and grown and simply delight
I read because frankly...it’s just out of sight :-)

Deo Volente
March 14, 2009

Always and Forever

Always and forever here is where I can be found
At the edge of this confusion firmly planted on the ground
In the swell of this emotion like a whale far out at sea
Always and forever here is where I’ll surely be

Where the shades of life will hold me just as tightly as can be
While I search in desperation for the sun to set me free
As the winds caress me softly just to soothe this ache so real
I will take a breath so filling that my heart will never feel

Always and forever in this state of silence heard
I will listen to the echoes of the secrets in each word
Touching the reflection in this steady flowing stream
trapped inside the current of this ever fleeting dream

I will find a place that keeps me but will gladly let me go
and I’ll venture in the stillness of what truly lies below
Overflowing with emotions of life’s peace and pain in swell
Always and forever in this place is where I’ll dwell.

Deo Volente
March 11, 2009

Yet another thought

Today is by far one of the most beautiful days I have been blessed with in recent days yet my heart is just a bit heavy. I have much cause to scream in celebration and just enough to weep in confusion. It seems to paraphrase “the more I know the less I understand” life indeed has played quite the trick on me today but that is after all what it is about isn’t it. With every blessing that we are so gracefully given we have choices to make, lessons to learn ways in which to grow and change in order to become who we are meant to be. Wouldn’t it be dull if we knew it all before we knew it...then we really wouldn’t need to know it at all, would we? So I suppose in that very strange realization of all things complex I will simply weep for my pain and rejoice in my Joy and thank God almighty for the blessing of life that makes it all possible.

Deo Volente
March 11, 2009

Reasons

Could it be that life has challenges for a reason?
That love and all the likes change by the seasons
That spring gives birth to life all fresh and true
While summer has its peace and troubles too
Yet fall delights with every change of color
And winter has a numbing sense of power

Is it true that with emotions things are skewed?
That subtle is a meager step from rude
Laughter is the sound within each frown
Praise can be reworded to put down
Love is merely words away from hate
and once exposed it simply is too late

Have you heard that pain comes from emotions hidden?
When heart gives in to mind without much reason
Listening to doubts in fated words
Actions that may sometimes seem absurd
All the little crass and callous thoughts
Inside the whispers said and never caught

Did you know that life’s a circle to be made?
And when the steps aren’t firm they simply fade
Leaving every lesson blurred and complicated
Though every action screams just what it stated
Fear that translates to hesitation
Filling minds with doubts for the duration

Lean closer and I’ll tell you how I feel
One small emotion raw and very real
I love with every fiber of this self
Yet safely tuck my core upon a shelf
For there're far too many layers one must peel
And that my friend is simply how I feel.

Deo Volente
March 5, 2009

Familiar road

Foolish is the lad that does...
all his life just as it was.
A tale of woe bound to rewrite
Repeating for his own delight
each error and each slight of tongue
each off key pitch so badly sung
Thinking that the tides would change
without the means to rearrange
One meager thing, one simple flaw,
still blinded by the things he saw
so sure in heart he should prevail
in travels of familiar trail
yet even though he’d wish it so
a different end he’d never know
for firm were all the steps he’d take
those carbon copies of mistakes
awaiting him at every turn
the lessons he would not discern
blinded by his every yearn...
this foolish lad just would not learn


Deo Volente
March 2, 2009