Easter

I have never liked saying, happy Easter. Of all the ways I celebrate Christ, Easter is the one that brings me more pain than joy. Don't get me wrong, I am beyond grateful that he chose to die for me and even more so that he rose from the dead. But I grieve that he endured so much pain. To be betrayed, abandoned, ridiculed, tortured and nailed to a cross bleeding to death not because of something he did but because of me, breaks me. I know that I should count it as a blessing beyond blessings to be loved that much and I do but it does not take away the anguish in my heart. So instead of saying happy Easter, let me say this, remember, he died so everyone of us could live. 

Thank you Jesus for loving me so much that you would willingly endure the unimaginable for my sake. I am not at all worthy, but I am eternally grateful.

KEC

aka Deo Volente

4/5/26

A puzzling thought.

 Word search or Crosswords puzzle? 

In the past I would have said hands down I am a word search person but lately I find myself leaning towards crosswords. Honestly, it is not because I have matured, I still enjoy a good word search every now and then. However, given the choice these days, I would choose a crossword, if for no other reason, for the challenge of the cruciverbalist's subjectivity. The fact is perspectives are subjective, but they have the potential for insight and insight potentially contributes to growth. So, though I may not agree with a crossword clue, each clue presents an opportunity for me to think beyond my own perspective. Whereas word searches only require me to find what is fixed within the box. 

What do you think?

KEC

aka Deo Volente

4/5/26

A hearts cry

Find me with mind, body and will, so I can be still.

In pulse of truth and soul, so pieces can be whole.

Seek me with tenderness, like no-one before.

So every bit of me, will want you even more.

Touch me in the courage of my try and as I cry.

From fingertips to cheek, touch me when I'm weak.

Hold me ever so in your embrace, caress my face.

Even as I'm standing in the rain, drenched in my pain. 

Wrap me in your arms from head to feet,

until I find my passion, bittersweet. 

Whisper every word in gentle voice, 

so you can be without a doubt, my choice. 

My reason to beseech the waking sun, 

where past gives way to all that has begun.

Do it all, so I believe in fate...

find me love, before it is too late.

K.E.C

aka Deo Volente

3/12/2026

Again

In blistering wind as cold as snow, 

I found the courage to get up and go. 

To thrust myself into the light, 

and that is when I learned to fight. 

For every shattered piece of me, 

reflections of the years I see. 

The pain, regrets and anguished cry, 

every reason just to die. 

In shivers of the great recall, 

I found the will to face them all. 

Removing every shard inside, 

no longer willing just to hide.

I faced the faces of the past, 

and took back all my love at last. 

Without a blink of eye, 

I bid them all goodbye. 

Then suddenly, the clouds stood out, 

and in my desperate final shout. 

I rushed into the rain, 

that reservoir of my pain, 

and found my heart, again. 

KEC

aka Deo Volente

2/21/2026

Lost

 If I could lose myself, I would seek in earnest steps where the sea finds the edge of the mountains and the sun bleeds into the sky. 

If I could lose myself, I would plant my feet firmly at the edge of a rainy day and soak up every drop without restraint. Casting my umbrella into the wind. 

If I could lose myself, I would scream in the still of silence, shattering my fears within the echoes of my years. Letting out what has held me in. 

If I could lose myself, I would run with determination towards that unseen tomorrow, willing and able to find my own pace. One foot in front of the other in steady assurance, unwavering.

If I could lose myself, I would listen to the rhythm of my beating heart and dance with unbridled joy, embracing the beauty within and without, quieting the noise of doubt. 

If I could lose myself, I would undoubtedly see with open eyes this tangled imperfection of self. Full and overflowing as I was always meant to be, then and only then, would I find me.  

KEC

aka Deo Volente

10/9/2025

You're not alone - explained

Have you ever felt alone? I have. 

By any chance, are you lonely now?

Loneliness is not an easy emotion to maneuver through, 

and the holidays can make it even more pronounced. 

Though I am years removed from that time of my life,

I recall it as clearly as though it were yesterday. 

That's why I wrote You're not alone. 

In its original form I said call me but realized that where I am limited, God is not. 

Though we may not always feel his presence or hear his voice, 

he is never far from us. 

So, if you are feeling lonely, 

I hope this poem serves as a remind that you are not alone. 

D.V.

T'll we meet again

I'll let the moments slip away, 

watching night turn into day. 

And do what I must do, 

till I return to you. 

I'll work these fingers to the bone, 

in crowded room I'll stand alone.

Guided by what's true, 

this heart beats just for you. 

I'll wipe away these bitter tears, 

as day turns into longing years. 

And sky begins to grey, 

my courage will not sway. 

I'll walk in paces sound and sure,

never wanting any more...

than what was meant to be.

Wait my love and see,

I will return to thee. 

KEC

aka Deo Volente

2/7/2026

Notable quote

"Everybody is a genius, but if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid."

-Albert Einstein.

Noble Peace Prize 1964 - MLK

I sat silently this morning, thinking about the man behind the day. If you are wondering who and what I am referring to, here is the answer, today is MLK day. 

It seems to me that most everyone at some time or another has listened to his I Have a Dream speech, but have you ever listened to his Nobel Peace Prize Acceptance speech? 

I listened to it for the first time this morning and though as expected, it was a speech encompassing the struggles of the 1960's, and rightly so, it also delved into something deeper. A borderless plight I suppose is one way to describe it. If you have never heard it, I hope you take the time to listen to it someday. 

Happy MLK day.

D.V.

1/19/2026

Being there

Take her hand surely in humble reply, 

to all the emotions her words will deny.

Deep in the clutch of a whisper, 

beyond where the world tries to keep her. 

Pull her in closer as stars start to shine, 

to give her a glimpse of what she hoped to find.

In still and in silence of night,

let her soak in all the light.

Hold her as softly as snowflakes that fall,

so far from this moment, her heart will recall.

For you have the chance to redeem...

this dreamer that lost will to dream.

Remind her in message, in action, in prose,

thorns are a part of the birth of each rose.

That perfection is mythical at best, 

and this is no more than a test...

so have faith and give God the rest. 

KEC

aka Deo Volente

1/17/2026

Fire

Have you ever felt like you've fallen short? If you said yes, I am right there with you. If you said no, call me, I would love to know your secret. 

On a serious note, I am so inspired when I see a person on fire for God, not literally, spiritually. Someone with a peace that passeth understanding, untouched by the hurdles of life, rooted in faith and unshakeable. Someone with a soul that you can see from miles away and feel just as intensely. 

Do you know what I mean? 

The thing is, I don't think that's something we can learn and I am certain it isn't something we can fake. I think we either have it or we don't. For those like me who don't, we strive for it, hopeful that someday it will be. Yet for those who do, I can almost guarantee you they don't even realize it. Because to them, it simply is who they are...isn't that amazing?

D.V.

1/15/2026

Thinking out loud

Deception

Often

Utilizes

Blurred

Truth

In other words, deception is never constructed with an out-right lie but rather built upon a partial truth in order to successfully plant the seed of doubt. 

KEC

aka Deo Volente

1/11/2026

The last song

Sing to me that final song, 

when I am weak and you are strong. 

When all the words are said, 

by angel's hand I'm led.

Sing to me that song of youth, 

of flowers that found will to root.

By mountains, deserts and streams, 

so they could find their dreams. 

Sing to me in whispered tone, 

the moment we are all alone.

When I leave and you must stay...

sing my love, to usher me away. 

KEC

aka Deo Volente

1/3/2026

Violinist

Out of the shadows, into the light

onto a stage where dream meets fright. 

For you are the conductor of your heart

and drive is what sets you apart. 

Though curve and strings, all look the same

this bow you caress, it calls out your name.

In echoes that muse every ear

bringing your passion to bare. 

So step out with boldness 

beyond where you stand.

And grab hold of destiny

just as you've planned.

Then all the small voices will see

you! have a reason to be...

breathe in and let your soul free. 

KEC

aka Deo Volente

1/10/2026

Still

If heart would still with every cry, 

in twist of wind where we deny, 

what breaks us into pieces, 

deep in the cracks and creases, 

In anguish we might start to yearn, 

for lessons we refuse to learn, 

then we could see the light, 

inside the dead of night. 

Beyond the dark where evil hides, 

and hate finds footing to reside, 

where love can never flourish...

we may find might of courage. 

KEC

aka Deo Volente

1/8/2026

Happy New Year - 2026

 I feel as though I blinked and 2025 ended. There really is truth in the thought that time moves faster with age. Maybe it's because we forget to enjoy the simple things while we rush towards something more. Or maybe our priorities become less about the moment and more about the process. Whatever the reason, we tend to forget that the essential part of life, is living. With that in mind, it is my sincerest wish that no matter how much we have to accomplish this year, we remember to live. I pray we resolve to treasure the moments; fleeting though they may be. Laugh, for it is healing. Love, simply because it is good for the heart. Dream because dreams have power. And never forget, no matter what each day brings, that we, collectively and individually, matter. 

Have a wonderful year World

D.V.

1.1.2026