Gift giving

I sat in the stillness tonight and found my thoughts dancing about me like the swirl of the wind, memories flooding about in my mind and I suddenly found myself wondering. I love Christmas, much like a child craves the taste of candy. The smell, the flicker of lights, the marvel of its true meaning...I have never been one to wish for gifts, I much rather sitting back and watching the sparkling eyes of someone recieving a gift from me. As a child I relished the thought of giving the perfect gift. I still feel that way, so much so that I worry about finding the perfect gift. But what is the perfect gift? every person is different, every wish varies and thus the root of my dismay. It was in the midst of this pondering, that I recalled a gift I had recieved as a small child. It was not Christmas, my birthday or any day that was deemed worthy of celebration. It was actualy the day before my friend moved away. We lived across the street from each other and he was my confidant, my playmate, my first friend. I was 5 and he was 6. All I remember is his making his way across the street with a stuffed toy twice his size and presenting it to me as a going away present. That stuffed toy was no substitute for my friend but it brought me comfort many times over the years. Truth is I never wanted a stuffed toy, I didn't ask for one and I would have prefered having my friend across the street but I never forgot the image of the jesture and thus this unexpected stuffed toy became my perfect gift...could it be that it truly is the thought that counts.

Deo Volente
November 22, 2009

Enough

I had a normal day and then came the night. I never thought I would be here again but here I am and dear I say enough! lifes actuality is no more than a reflection of choices, stumbles, steps and strides and the image I see is bleek at best. So I will say with conviction and determination. "No matter where the wind does blow, no matter how the tides may throw, no matter what the challenges ahead, I will grab this life and live before I'm dead! for tomorrow is no guarantee and now is all I have you see, so why not do the best that I can do, tis only then to myself I'll be true."

Deo Volente
November 18, 2009

Dear Friend

I want to say I understand
believe me how I do
to reach across this wide divide
inside the web where you reside
and hold on to your hand
because I understand
I know too well the sting of doubt
the shadows that dwell in and out
when dark surrounds the light
like shadows of the night
I want to simply share a smile
to let you know that on this mile
the road may curve or bend
but soon this dark will end
God keeps you in his arms so tight
he'll shelter you throughout this night
his stars shall guide your way
so friend please don't dismay...
have faith, you'll be ok.

Deo Volente
November 7th, 2009